Awkward! This woman tried to say goodbye and she choked, then tried to walk away and she stumbled

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When I saw you today, three things popped into my head: games, changes and fears. I don’t know why it was those three words, but I couldn’t help but wonder, where will they go from here? When will they cease to exist? I concluded that fate brought us here because we should we together, babe.

But we’re not.

I’m acting pretty blasé about it, but you’ve been on my mind non-stop. I’ve been playing it super casual, but when I close my eyes and go to bed, you’re constantly in my subconscious.

Then, it happened. I tried to say goodbye, but as I said it, I suddenly had intense difficulty breathing. Then I tried to turn around, and leave the situation, but I tripped! Whilst I tried to masquerade my blunder, it was intensely obvious that my Earth collapses inside on itself when we’re not together.

I know I look super cool and casual, but I’m absolutely trapped because I love you so much. I know I seem fine, but I’m literally just putting it on.

I’m not letting my constant thoughts about you get to me. I’m chill, but unfortunately when I close my eyes I can’t help but indulge in a series of fantasies involving you.

I tried to bid you farewell and I struggled for air, I put one foot in front of the other and then I stacked it – how embarrassing! Whilst I tried to present myself like everything is okay, it is pretty clear that myself as a planet is struggling without your presence.

Here’s something I need to say: I want to be owned by you. I’d like to be felt by you – hugs, mouth stuff, etc. You name it. I can’t lie about this anymore.

I tone it down but I’ve had a series of pleasant thoughts about you, inside my dreams. I know I’m distant but I’m craving you.

I tried to part ways from you, but I had trouble on my intake of breath. I tried to stride specifically not towards you, but I lost my footing – and hiding it’s impossible when my life forms a black hole when I’m not next to you.

Kat Sadler

Kat is a comedian, writer and mentally unwell bisexual. She's written for a whole bunch of shows like Frankie Boyle's New World Order, The Mash Report, The Jonathan Ross Show, The News Quiz, The Daily Mash and her own stuff too, thanks for asking. Check out her sad little blog here